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Archive for November, 2007

Life is strange, and sometimes in a good way

Posted by thoughtful1 on November 20, 2007

Thanksgiving is in two days.  Normally, I can’t think of anything to be thankful for beyond the usual good health, good job, good family, roof over my head, blah blah blah.  I know, I know – those are very valuable things.  But I’m usually too busy to think about what I should be truly thankful for.  Sad, but true.

This year is a little different.  I’ve been in a funk  with my church – I’ll save the details for a future post (maybe).  So I’ve been taking a break from church. I’ve spent Sunday mornings in bed and listening to the radio.  This past morning I was listening to WBUR, a local NPR affilitate.  Each Sunday morning at 11, though, WBUR broadcasts the interfaith service at BU’s chapel.  Not surprisingly, the sermon this week was on thankfulness.

I don’t remember all the details of the sermon, but one bit caught my attention.  The minister talked about contemplating how sometimes God sends us things when we most need and when we least expect them.  That got my attention.  This past year, something precious was given to me right when I needed it, and when I least expected it.  And it’s something for which I am very grateful.

We had a major re-org this past spring.  It didn’t affect me too much professionally – I am still doing the same thing I was doing before.  I just  report to someone else.  And they moved me.  They moved me closer to a group of users who can be… needy.  Demanding.  Thorns in my side.

I was apprehensive.

The first month or so I kept a low profile.   I didn’t want to be bothered by them, and I was suddenly surrounded by people I didn’t know well.  When I am in a new situation, I keep quiet, waiting until it’s safe to come out.  I don’t show my true colors until I know what the rules are of the group or situation.

After a month or so, I slowly became friends with one of my new office mates.  Because of this, I ended up joining a professional association.  I had been thinking about becoming a member for a while, but never got around to it.  But my new friend wanted to join, and asked if I was interested.  I said, “Sure.”  He e-mailed someone and told them we wanted to be members, and we became members.  So he served as a catalyst for me joining.

It turned out that being part of this group meant an instant social life.  Suddenly I was meeting people who were open to getting together to do stuff – go out to eat, go dancing, hang out and do nothing, take day trips.   And, even though it’s been a very short time, I’ve made some very good friends.

And right when I needed them.

Right before (or right after?) joining this association, I came to realization that I needed to break-up  with my boyfriend.  It wasn’t working.  I had been slowly getting to the end of my rope, and I finally got there.  Even though I initiated the break-up, it really got to me.  Tears, depression, etc.  But having places to go and people to meet has helped me get through that, and now I am finding myself part of a social group that is giving me something I really haven’t had since college: friends and acquaintances with whom I can just be.  And who make me feel welcome.

And all because of a corporate re-org that stuck me somewhere I didn’t want to be.  Who would have guessed?

Fate is a strange thing.

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