Sorry, been busy the past few months…….. My bad.
Anyway, for reasons I won’t get into, I’ve been re-thinking some things the past few weeks. It started with TV. This fall season I haven’t been watching as much TV as I usually do. Further, I simply haven’t missed any of the shows I usually watch. The only program I was excited about seeing, and that I made an effort to see was “Mad Men,” whose season has ended. After watching the “Heroes” premiere and realizing it was stupid, I gave up on that show. As well as a few others, including “Smallville,” which has gotten dumber than “Heroes”. I cleaned up the DVR. The only shows I have set to record are “House” and “Dirty Sexy Money,” and I may cancel those, too.
Basically, I no longer found TV all that entertaining. And I figured my time would be better spent elsewhere.
The other things I’ve been re-thinking are a little less specific. More like, “What should I be doing with myself?” types of questions. I started re-examining relationships I’ve made in the past year and whether they were worth maintaining. Some are, some are not. Last year I became a social butterfly, which is very, very odd for me. This year I feel like retreating back into the cocoon, but with a better sense of who will be a real friend, and on whom I can rely.
Oddly, along with this, I’ve been putting more thought into my home. A friend helped me clear out the living room in a big way. Boxes that had been sitting there for years were relocated to the basement, and the basement hodgepodge was organized. So now I have a big open space in the living room. And it’s given me space to think: What to do with this? I found myself staring at the 13 year-old TV and wondering if I should put it up on Freecycle. I think I may do this, but only after I find a replacement TV for the kitchen. I live alone, so the ability to watch the news while eating dinner is a must. Sad, but true. However, my current setup in the living room allows me to lounge and eat while watching TV, something I find very relaxing, and something of an emotional comfort. So I’m not sure…… But, it would be nice to have one room in the place that does not have a TV. And probably better for me, too.
Thinking about the home is really forcing me to think about my life, such as what I do, what I want to do, what my style is, etc. These are tough questions. Especially since I think I am beginning some sort of transition. To what, I don’t know. For example, the obvious answer to the living room would be to buy sitting furniture and set it up for reading and conversation. But, as I was staring at the nearly bare wall where the now very lonely TV is, I thought it might be interesting to place a project table there where I could do artwork.
But, I am not an artist.
However, I’ve been considering taking an art course. I’ve always enjoyed doing art, but I only took classes when I was in school, and even then it was only what was required for my diploma. Since high school doesn’t count art as academic (but you can get a degree in it! hrmph), I took two course, and one course in college. That was it. I would like to go back to it, and see if having an artistic outlet would make me feel more balanced. Or something. Odds are I would get frustrated at the lack of technical skill – I wouldn’t be able to draw something the way I wanted it to look – but it would be worth a shot.
And, if I had a large table somewhere where I could work on stuff, then maybe instead of wasting time watching TV I could find pleasure in creating something. But, there’s always the fear that the large project table would become a gathering place for more clutter. So, I should think about that some more.
Useless Thoughts Running Through My Head 